You shouldn’t have to be an expert in every field. Ideally, you should be able to trust the experts you pay money to add one less worry in your mind. Unfortunately, when it comes to pregnancy, that doesn’t seem to be fully the case in my small Christ loving town of Corpus Christi, Texas. You see, they don’t do any genetic screening at 10 weeks like every normal place in the first world. So make sure you DEMAND your noninvasive prenatal screening (NIPT)!

They sure like to assume you are trash by testing you for all sorts of drug use. They took so much blood out on my 10 week test that I assumed they were doing a genetic screening. But noooo. How does this information help me? I already know I don’t do drugs!

They did do a genetic test like at my 16th week, and revealed the results on my 17th week and told me I had higher odds for a down syndrome child. Wtf, why are they telling me this now when I am far into the pregnancy? Then my husband and I did a genetic test on a website called xcode, they claimed they included down syndrome in their tests, so we bought it. Just to be sure, I emailed the company and they said they don’t actually include it with the 23andme data I uploaded because it doesn’t have all the data. So now I just have to wait for the actual doctor’s results…. like 14 days I believe.

Also had a miscarriage scare. Bleeding way more than a first day’s period non stop. Lost all my pregnancy symptoms. Called the nurse at my doctor’s office and she told me the safe answer, “go to the ER”… where it costs $5000 (I’ve been there years ago) and run the risk of getting COVID19! And I was like no no no. Why would I go there? What’s the risk if I don’t go? Why can’t I just get an ultra sound at another doctor’s office? I didn’t feel like I was near death, and if it is a miscarriage, there is nothing they could do. Plus, I had an ultrasound done a few days earlier at the OBGYN’s office. If there was a life threatening problem, couldn’t they have found it then? After making these logical points, they told me they had no ultrasound appointments available today and the only place available was the ER.

So I took the initiative to call the local MFM and asked if they had any openings that day, they said yes! But I would need a referral from my OBGYN. So I called the OBGYN nurse back and told her the good news. And she said she can’t do the referral because MFM is only for extreme cases. I told her that the ER is for extreme near death cases too, but the MFM is only like $200 a visit vs. $5000. After pushing and pushing, she booked an appointment for me at the local radiology place which was only $63!!!! They would fax the ultrasound to my doctor and they would tell me what is going on.

Turns out, the baby was still there and I had some weird condition called subchorionic hemorrhage! What were the odds of that?! I read it is typical in women who had IVF. I didn’t have that! I think it has to do with being in your 30’s and having kids right after the other… I think… just a hypothesis someone might test because from the stories I read, there were other women who had it who were also in their 30’s and had other kids. I believe I healed from it.

So much drama in this pregnancy so far.

So in conclusion, be an expert online researcher and critical thinker. Don’t trust the medical experts to do it fully for you!

My other conclusion is aim to have children between the ages of 20-24 so the odds of a drama-free pregnancy is much much much better! They don’t tell you this in liberal-agenda schools!

I feel like I have been told in every life situation to be tough with the EXCEPTION of motherhood.

How is it that suddenly I am hearing on every mom website and person to “take a break”, “self-care” and all that? This is such a foreign concept suddenly!

It starts in school where you spend all day there, eat a cold packed meal (because you are too stupid to be trusted with using a mini oven), and spend hours doing homework, and be super stressed and scared about exams because, as the message goes, this is your only chance at life to shine, if you mess up, your future is bleak, you will be poor and homeless! And if you are like most people, you should do this while being poor.

And if you are an older kid, at 16, you should be tough enough to do a part-time job that gives you a measly 15 minute break after 5 hours or so. If you are in retail, you have to stand up the whole time with your legs hurting. If you are telemarketing, you get headaches from all the verbal harassment. And you are probably commuting to this job two hours total in a bus.

And then you probably get a sketchy “real job” that earns you money all right but you know is a big waste of time and is not contributing to society (think insurance, agents, etc). And you are expected to be there 8 hours a day everyday with only 10 days of vacation a year and some statutory holidays!

But suddenly, when you are a mom, you hear the message everywhere: “TAKE A BREAK”, “SELF CARE!” This is actually the time when you are supposed to exert your energy the most. But society tells you that this energy should be dedicated to school and work, not your children!

So how do we summarize this message? The customer is always right, the customer is king, but when you have a kid who is vulnerable to you, it is okay to put yourself first?

Well I have exerted a lot of energy but I will not stop now!

What a laugh. Went to pick up groceries early morning and everything you could possibly do wrong this old lady did, like an over exaggerated skit on SNL.

– Windows rolled down
– Orders only a small single bag of groceries! Is this supposed to last a week? What a waste of curbside service. It is high in demand and you have to wait a week for a time slot, and she uses it for a measily bag of what? Are these the boomer women who are supposed to have more life/homemaking skills than us millennials?
– Then she asks for the groceries to be given to her in her hands rather than the trunk breaking safety protocol.
– It gets better… she chats with the employee for a good five minutes. I was in no rush to take this picture.
– It gets even better… she even tips the employee a dirty dollar bill! The guy, who is supposed to be a supervisor, accepts it!

The lady had no mask nor any gloves!

I wonder how the pandemic would play out if the average iq increased by three points…
I think about how the old cling on to their ways even if it means risking the lives of the younger generations. This applies to their disregard for the environment too…

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These wet market vendors and the Chinese government have caused so much troubles in this world with no consequence… at all! Half the population will go into poverty. There will most likely be a depression. No apology? No solution? No charge? No jail? No revenge no justice?

I think about the super spreaders too who didn’t respect quarantine rules! The general disobedience and lack of civil respect!

I think about the heavy hand the common person has to deal with. The guy who has to wear an anklet tracking device for house arrest for a petty drinking or drug crime, but no anklets for the covid positive person that could kill many people wandering the streets and stores.

Then I think about gang violence, cartels, mafia, general criminals who kill to get even for petty cash. Now they are financially hurting cause of covid. Will they get even with the Wuhan wet market?

I think about custom agents who put up a security theater, who are quick to make travelers throw away expensive things if it breaks any of their million rules for “safety”. What are these people doing about covid walking right through their doors? Nothing.

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More poverty = more deaths.

Super strict social isolation sounds like it works if done for a short amount of time, 14+ days, a few weeks or so, but to have social isolation done for months, even a year, we are headed in economic collapse and people do not know how to cope to the new reality (who do you know that can grow their own food, harvest their own water, use solar panels and hand wash their own clothes?), and most people are going to be impoverished… and we all know that more poverty = more deaths.

Today we spotted a Monarch Butterfly flying around our milkweed flowers. I am so glad I planted them! For one, it’s great to help an endangered species but it was also music to my ears to hear Kiom say “wow, wow, wow” and try to chase the butterfly. He did the hand sign for bird.